Full of pride

As I have been married now for a little over a year I have experienced some great and exciting things for sure. It has been an awesome first year for sure. We have had some great times as well as the birth of our first child; a little boy named Judah who is now 3 and a half months old and absolutely amazing! But I have also been challenged to the core of my being in the area of pride. I never really thought I had much pride before, and actually thought I was pretty humble. But after being married, the simple thing of not being on my own any more, not being single, having to be responsible and do what is best for my family instead of what I felt like doing was a real thing that I was faced with and it is honestly one of the hardest things I have ever been challenged with. I see my pride coming out all the time in ways that I hate so much. Pride is so easy to give in to. Pride is so easily manifested. In everyday life I find that I have so many opportunities to give into pride and selfish ambition, or I can choose humility and servanthood. The decision is mine. I want to choose humility and contend against pride. I want to be gentle, tender, sensitive and meek. All these traits are the complete opposite of the spirit of pride. They represent who Jesus truly is and what I am called to be. I have realized that it is going to take a focused, intentional effort and pursuit of humility and meekness. I cannot just magically attain it. I have to practice developing it through the life situations that come my way. I have had a lot burning on my heart concerning pride and what we are all called to in fighting against it and pursuing a life of humility. I hope to share more of this in the next week or so.

~ by bencunnington on February 7, 2007.